This song was written directly following an episode of me, the artist, sobbing on the floor of a music hall practice room.
lyrics
Counting back from ten, I try to slow my breath again
Sinking further down, than arms extend
Leave a mark so blue, in your distinctive shape
Something I could never wash away
I know I am worth the things that I give up
So I am done asking for love
Cause I don't want to rely on hot water to keep me alive
I know we won't always have what we need to survive
You've been here longer
And you should've known
Now more than ever that I deserve better
Than cold and shallow
Did I leave the faucet on, is that why you're so cold?
Acting like the only one feeling low
You did not deserve, the things that I gave up
And I am done asking for love
And I'm so tired of drowning just to breathe
I keep my head beneath the surface hoping that you'll remind me
Why I jumped in to begin with cause the water's draining now
You don't help me when my oxygen is running out
And I don't want to rely on hot water to keep me alive
I know we won't always have what we need to survive
You've been here longer than me
So you should've known
Now more than ever that I deserve better
Than cold and shallow
credits
from House Fire,
released April 21, 2023
Production: Zachary Becker and Opal Kelly
Lyrics: Opal Kelly and Lily Eager
Vocals: Opal Kelly